New Day... Day 7?

Hey Everyone. Happy Sunday.

Just wanted to give a quick update. I'm feeling good today, but I'm also getting a little bit concerned because this is about the time where I have given up in the past. Each and every time I 'tried to make a change', it ended up as a failure. What makes this time different? How do I stay inspired, motivated, and driven?

I want to give a little background as to way I KNOW that this time will be different.

A few days before I started this blog, I found a kind of journal entry that my boyfriend had written. In it he detailed how he loved thinking about other girls in lustful ways. And he wrote that he wished I had a better body, so that maybe his desires would not be so strong. Needless to say I was devastated. I love him so much, and I always knew that he felt something like this, but seeing it in his handwriting was the most awful thing. I hated myself for a few days and I was just as furious with myself and I was with him. Eventually I told him and he apologized profusely. A few days later I told him that I had forgiven him but that I couldn't guarantee that I wouldn't feel super self conscious around him. I still do feel awkward now, but I know that he loves me. I'm not going to let something that I could absolutely fix get in the way of us being happy together.

So this is why I know that I can do this. I need too. I need to love myself enough to change my body for the better and I know that he will love me no matter what. Sometimes there is nothing better to inspire you than a hard slap in the face. Sometimes, it is necessary for your well being.

I hope you all are having a great weekend and that I can encourage you to be healthy and do something for yourself! You deserve it.

xo Megan