Tuesday...

So after today's weigh in I feel like I need to find some new inspiration. Part of the reason I think I have failed so much in the past is because I get 'bored' easily. I don't get what I want immediately and I give up because I'd rather have food.

Well, not this time. I don't need food to be happy... I need to love myself to be happy and I can't do that when I am this overweight. How do I stay inspired??

Well for one, this blog has already gotten my farther than I have in the past. I look forward to writing everyday. I like talking about my problems without being judged and pitied because I've let my weight problem get this far. Also, I don't have anyone telling me what I should be doing. My family is really bad about that. The truth is that I already know what I should be doing, I just need to do it. I don't need the constant reminder.

I know that this is going to take a while. Quick weight loss never or rarely works and some things are even better when you have to work hard everyday for a long time to get them. If I work as hard as I can everyday (without killing myself of course) on being a better me then the ultimate pay off will be ten million times better. I am looking forward to my 20th birthday (my goal date) next year and feeling like I have accomplished something.

In addition to the great rewards I will feel later on, I would like to add the inspiration that vanity will provide. It may be awful to say, but it is completely true. I cannot wait to feel sexy, go shopping, and love the way I look in clothes. I want to be confident and feel good in my body. It's the only one I'm going to get and I DESERVE to feel amazing.

I hope you find your own inspiration! Tell me what inspires you!

xo Megan