Amazing Video...

I know, I know... it is super late.

But this video is so amazing. In it, Shanti addresses positive self talk. It is amazing and it makes so much sense. If you are feeling uninspired of wondering why you are not taking the proper actions to get healthy (like I often do) WATCH IT.

xo Megan

Ps. to myself: I am getting healthier everyday and making healthy choices.

Pss. to you: watch the video to get my first ps.

I'm Home...

Well kind of... I'm back in my parents house after a long 6 hour drive. Blech... I am so tired.. but yet I am up at almost 1:00am.

Anyways, I wanted to say that I had an okay day. I now that I did eat more than I should have but tomorrow my sister, Tabetha, and I are going to a Zumba class to workout. Yay.

So I'll keep this short because it's so late.

xo Megan

Technically it's Wednesday morning... but...

I wanted to add some new habits to my list....

So far I have added taking vitamins everyday, moisturizing everyday, and (obviously) blogging daily. This week I want to add just one: stretching every night.

I used to be super flexible and now I feel really stiff when I wake up. So from now on, I will stretch on a daily basis.

Just wanted to add that. Now seriously... good night.

xo Megan

Tuesday...

So after today's weigh in I feel like I need to find some new inspiration. Part of the reason I think I have failed so much in the past is because I get 'bored' easily. I don't get what I want immediately and I give up because I'd rather have food.

Well, not this time. I don't need food to be happy... I need to love myself to be happy and I can't do that when I am this overweight. How do I stay inspired??

Well for one, this blog has already gotten my farther than I have in the past. I look forward to writing everyday. I like talking about my problems without being judged and pitied because I've let my weight problem get this far. Also, I don't have anyone telling me what I should be doing. My family is really bad about that. The truth is that I already know what I should be doing, I just need to do it. I don't need the constant reminder.

I know that this is going to take a while. Quick weight loss never or rarely works and some things are even better when you have to work hard everyday for a long time to get them. If I work as hard as I can everyday (without killing myself of course) on being a better me then the ultimate pay off will be ten million times better. I am looking forward to my 20th birthday (my goal date) next year and feeling like I have accomplished something.

In addition to the great rewards I will feel later on, I would like to add the inspiration that vanity will provide. It may be awful to say, but it is completely true. I cannot wait to feel sexy, go shopping, and love the way I look in clothes. I want to be confident and feel good in my body. It's the only one I'm going to get and I DESERVE to feel amazing.

I hope you find your own inspiration! Tell me what inspires you!

xo Megan

Weigh In #1

Hello Everyone.

It's Tuesday morning and it's weigh in number one:

Last Week:
Weight: 237.4

This Week:
Height: 5'2''
Weight: 236.8
BMI: 43.3

Okidoki, so not a big loss but that's okay because I did lose. I did go off plan yesterday and I haven't exercised at all for the past couple of days so I'd say that a lose of .6lbs is still good.

I would like to add, however, that since I started 'kind of' losing weight on my own in January I have lost 6.2lbs. Now, that's kick ass.

Also, I am super happy to report that I have blogged, taken my vitamins, and moisturized every day. (Those are the new habits I started last week.) So that is super amazing.

Tomorrow, I will be going home for my sister's graduation. Hopefully I will be able to work out at the YMCA there. More later today.

xo Megan

Monday...

Hello Everyone,

All is well here. I went a little off plan today. I didn't eat a whole bunch but I definitely didn't listen to my bodies signals. And boy, did I feel gross. I felt like I couldn't move and I just wanted to go to sleep.

I need to remember what that feels like. It is utterly pointless to overeat and it just sucks after you're done. Why feel like crap if you don't have to?

Weigh-in tomorrow. Be sure to check in.

xo Megan

Things I want more than sweets...

So I'm at work right now. I went into the Union and wanted coffee so badly. But no, I opted for a fresh fruit smoothie containing only 133 calories for the whole thing. Yummm.

Here are somethings that I want more than sweets:

• To shock my Uncle Scott when he comes back from Afghanistan next year.
• To never feel the sluggishness that comes from over-eating at every meal.
• To enjoy summer clothes AND actually wear them in public because I like the way they look on me.
• To be truly confident.

This time will be different.

xo Megan