New Day... Day 7?

Hey Everyone. Happy Sunday.

Just wanted to give a quick update. I'm feeling good today, but I'm also getting a little bit concerned because this is about the time where I have given up in the past. Each and every time I 'tried to make a change', it ended up as a failure. What makes this time different? How do I stay inspired, motivated, and driven?

I want to give a little background as to way I KNOW that this time will be different.

A few days before I started this blog, I found a kind of journal entry that my boyfriend had written. In it he detailed how he loved thinking about other girls in lustful ways. And he wrote that he wished I had a better body, so that maybe his desires would not be so strong. Needless to say I was devastated. I love him so much, and I always knew that he felt something like this, but seeing it in his handwriting was the most awful thing. I hated myself for a few days and I was just as furious with myself and I was with him. Eventually I told him and he apologized profusely. A few days later I told him that I had forgiven him but that I couldn't guarantee that I wouldn't feel super self conscious around him. I still do feel awkward now, but I know that he loves me. I'm not going to let something that I could absolutely fix get in the way of us being happy together.

So this is why I know that I can do this. I need too. I need to love myself enough to change my body for the better and I know that he will love me no matter what. Sometimes there is nothing better to inspire you than a hard slap in the face. Sometimes, it is necessary for your well being.

I hope you all are having a great weekend and that I can encourage you to be healthy and do something for yourself! You deserve it.

xo Megan

Eating Out

Hello Everyone.

I just wanted to talk a little bit about going out to eat. Today my boyfriend and I decided it would be fun to go downtown and walk around and then go out to Chili's for dinner. I decided that I would order what I wanted but follow the 'intuitive eating' rules. And guess what??? I DID. I stopped eating when I was full and left about half of my whole meal on the plate. I think that is so awesome.

So often in the past I would be saying, in my head, how I should put the fork down because I wasn't hungry but still shoveled more food in my mouth. But not today! I told myself that I didn't need it, and that I could have that again if I wanted, so there was no need to shovel in what my body, physically, didn't want.

So yeah, I just wanted to quickly share that snippet of success with you guys!

xo Megan

To Weigh or Not to Weigh... Like I could help it.

So, I think one of the hardest things to do while losing weight, is not getting on the scale every 5 minutes. I tried my hardest to leave it alone, but I ended up weighing myself this morning.... Good news, but I won't share until tuesday. (More inspiration not to mess it up in the next 3 days).

Have an awesome Saturday...

xoMegan

Day 5... Discoveries...

Hello Everyone.

I made an amazing discovery. Brushing your teeth.... takes away sweet cravings. I'm sure that's no big deal and the idea has been around forever, but IT WORKS. I didn't have dessert after dinner because my boyfriend and I were going grocery shopping but I really wanted ice cream or somthing... brushed my teeth and saw chocolate in the freezer and had no desire to eat it. Amazing, huh? lol.

Anyways, it's the end of day five and I still feel pretty good. Got a lot of exercise this morning with the tour and all. My feet are killing me. I decided that today, I would actually use the food log on the caloriecount website... I ended up eating almost exactly 1600 calories today. It was a little more than I expected, but not horrible.

I'm going to put one more link up today... even though hopefully I'll get better about posting all of my favorite links in the 'Happy Friday' part of my blog. Eh, I'm a beginnner, forgive me.

So, this group on youtube is really funny and gives a lot of great advice about weight loss and what not. Check out the weightlosslosers.

xo Megan

Happy Friday

Hello Everyone.

I think I'm going to make "Happy Friday" a weekly thing and I'll post some links that I really love or reccommend some people who I think are really awesome.

First of all, last night, I downloaded the calorie-count tool bar and it is AWESOME. I love it. There are buttons to go to you food, weight, and activity logs. It keeps track of the food you enter (Eat Meter) and displays your food 'grade' AND my favorite part is that it displays your 'pounds lost'. It is really fun, and it serves as a visual reminder of my goal.

So be sure to check it out. IT'S FREE.

Also, I want to repost the link for Shanti's youtube channel, because, yes, she is that awesome.

xo Megan

Starting Weigh-In (#0)

Last post for the day, I promise!

I actually weighed myself on Tuesday, but since I started blogging today, I'm putting everything online. So from now on, my weigh-ins will be on Tuesdays.

The only thing I think I'm going to signify on weigh-ins will be weight and maybe changes in pant size. I may end up posting pictures and measurements, but I'm not sure.

(as of 5-26-09)
Start Weight: 237.4 lbs
Pant Size: 18

One website I use to track my progress in weight loss is http://caloriecount.about.com/. It's pretty cool to see the line move down, so I like it. They also have activity and food logs. So go ahead and use it, because it's free!

Okidoki. Have a good night, ya'll.

xo Megan

Day 4

5-28-08...



And yet, another great day. I followed all the 'rules' and went another 30 minute walk around the neighborhood with my honey. I do have to admit that I'm getting a little bored with walking which signifies the immeadiate need for another form of exercise... stat!



Tomorrow at work I'll be giving a tour of the campus in the morning, so I know I will for sure get some exercise. If we go grocery shopping, I'll buy a basketball or somthing for when I go to the park with my boyfriend this weekend. We were already planning on some sort of picnic so that will be fun.



I'd like to give recognition to someone I've been watching on youtube for a while. She is a super huge inspiration and I have taken a lot of her advice in the past and plan to do the same. Her name is Shanti and she is really cool, so check her out and subscribe to her videos!



I also want to talk about my plan a little bit. The first thing I need to fix is my food. I just moved out of my dorm room, and consequently, off my meal plan at school. When I had to start cooking for myself, I realized how much I would eat everyday in a buffet style environment. So, what I'm doing now is called intuitive eating. I encourage you to check out the link and read the principles of the concept. It is pretty much commen sense when you think about it. "Eat when you're hungry, stop when you're full." AH ROCKET SCIENCE. hah. Later on, I would like to transition into an organic diet and move away from most processed foods. But for the initial start of my 'lifestyle change', I will be 'intuitively' eating.

xo Megan

ps. AH... I was ready to publish this post and my internet connection messed up... but luckily blogger.com automatically saves drafts. whew.

5-27-09

Another good day. I completed all of my daily goals and went on an almost 30 min. walk.

Now, I want to talk about staying on track because in the past I always give up when my whole focus is on food and dieting and then I don't see results immeadiately. How can I keep myself from doing that this time??

• remind myself daily that this is not a diet, but a healthy life style change
• fill my days with other meaninful and healthy activites.

So from now on, I will work on completing my open-ended list of things I like/would like to do. They are all mentally stimulating, rewarding, and will fill my thinking instead of me focusing so much on losing the weight.

xo Megan

5-26-09

I did super good today. I stopped when I was full and reminded myself how unnecessary it is to eat more than that. As far as working out... I think I'll count sex as my exercise. :) I will add, however, that I felt incredibly self conscious and I know that sex will be so much more amazing when I am thinner and I can concentrate on the good stuff rather than how huge I feel. I also drank a ton of water and obviously I am journaling so this is day one complete with new goals.

Habits I am now integrating:

• take vitamins everyday
• moisturizing everyday

xo Megan

5-25-09

This is how I'm going to fix this huge problem. I am going to get over being angry at him and myself and fix the problem. I am overweight by more than I will ever care to admit but I'm going to change. I am going to change how I view food, how I take care of my body, and how I feel about myself. I need to remember that I am worth taking care of. People love and care about me and I should too.

Loving myself will come from: not beating my self up, taking care of my body through nutrition and exercise, and organizing my life.

My Long Term Goals:
By July 1, 2010, my 20th birthday, I will:

1. have gotten to my goal weight of 165lbs.
2. have changed my mindset about food (by eating when I'm hungry and stopping when I'm full (aka. intuitive eating))
3. have established an exercise routine
4. have established focus in school
5. I'm sure there will be more....

Since the rec center on campus is closed to me until June 8th, I will start the first two weeks concentrating on food and establishing new habits. I don't think I've ever done anythign for two weeks straight so this will be a true test.

From 5-25 to 6-8 I will:

• work on stopping when I'm full
• drink lots of water
• journal (now blog) everyday

Exercise will soon become a very important part of this plan but for the next two weeks I will only "work out" when I feel like it and strive to be more active on a daily basis through other means (chores etc.)

xo Megan

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Hello Everyone!

My name is Megan and I am a sophomore Hospitality Management major at the University of North Texas. Right now is when I'm supposed to be figuring out who I am and what I want to do with the rest of my life and I have come to realize that being over-weight is definitely not a part of that.

This blog will serve as as outlet for my thoughts/discoveries about losing weight along with other things that may cross my mind.

I hope you all enjoy. Please feel free to email me at anytime.

xo Megan