Positivity

Okay,

The title this blog started out with was "Blerg", which was meant to convey my disappointment in myself... but, no. I refuse to go back to that self-loathing person who falls off plan once and then completely gives up!

So yes, last night I couldn't sleep, turned on my computer and ate a shitload of Chex Mix while watching YouTube videos. And yes, today I had two cupcakes after baking my new neighbors something to welcome them. But in retrospect, I have been totally awesome this week. I have tracked my calories, worked about at least 4 times, and have been feeling really good about what I am doing.

Falling off plan once in 21 days is nothing. It is complete proof that I can do this!

I am getting skinnier, healthier, and sexier everyday!

xo Megan

Working out...

Hello Everyone,

I just wanted to check in about working out. My boyfriend and I went to the Rec Center on campus for the first time in a very long time.

So I did my 30 minutes on the Elliptical with a 5 minute cool down and it felt really good. Afterwards, my honey and I went to the basketball court and shot hoops for about 30 minutes. All in all a pretty extensive workout but, seriously, the last 30 minutes of basketball felt more like fun and not like exercise (I'm actually getting pretty good at shooting baskets!)

Total I burned over 500 calories! Awesome!

See you tomorrow!
Megan

DAY 20...

Hey Everyone!

I just wanted to say very quickly that... HOLY CRAP! IT'S DAY 20. This is so amazing you guys. I already feel so much better than I have (and by better I mean sore as hell. LOL).

Anyways, I hope you all are having a great Saturday.

I'll probably check in later tonight.

xo Megan

Happy Friday

Hello Everyone. I hope you're weekend is off to a great start.

I am currently following Shanti on her new youtube channel called antishayreads. Here, she just reads aloud books that she loves and feels others should know about. Currently she is reading In Defense of Food: An Eater's Manifesto. Right now I'm just listening when I can, and from what I've heard so far, this book is awesome. In it, Michael Pollan talks about how what most of us consume and consider 'food' is not really food. I'm not sure if I will buy it, but I will definitely listen to it.

So check out those two things if you're interested.

xo Megan

My Uncle

Good Morning Everyone,

I just wanted to talk a little bit about my Uncle Scott. He has been my hero every since I was a little girl. He is a fighter pilot for the Navy and just recently he was sent off to Afghanistan. I am scared to death for him but I know he'll come back fine because he has too.

My uncle has never ever said anything about my weight. I see him so infrequently that I'm sure it's not something he wants to bring up. But he is a health 'freak'. He loves to work out and snowboard and do a lot of rather extreme sports. I know that he has worried about my health and I do not want to do that anymore.

He will be coming back from duty next August... and when I see him I am going to be healthy. That is more than a year from now, so it is totally possible for me to get my ass in gear and become a healthier me. I know he will be so proud and that's all I want to do... make him proud.

I hope you all can find powerful inspiration like this. It is often the best kind!

Ouch.

Hello Everyone,

I'm guessing that you can assume from the title that I worked out today, and oh yes I did.

I played basketball with my honey for about an hour, stretched, and did my leg and ab exercises (for Thursday).

All in all, I feel super amazing (except for the soreness I will feel tomorrow). :)

I did want to talk a little about something unexpected I realized in my Economics class this afternoon. My teacher was talking about unemployment and how the rate varies from group to group (women, men, white, Hispanic, etc.). Anyways, he mentioned a study done by the University of Texas called "Beauty and the Beast" where the researcher discovered that despite discrimination prevention a lot of hirer's look at physical attractiveness (perhaps unconsciously, perhaps not) when talking to potential candidates. I sat there and thought, "Wow, I DO NOT want to be someone who is turned down from a job because I am over weight." I can, in fact, understand how being over weight could be interpreted badly in a job setting. Obviously if you can't take care of you're own body and healthy, you won't be able to take a lot of responsibility within the company. It doesn't matter if you are the most qualified person for the job. New employers don't know that and they won't care.

This honestly scares me. I refuse to be one of those people. When I get out into the job market, I want people to see my personality and my skill sets and NOT my weight.

Yet, another reason why this weight loss journey I'm on right now is for real. There is no turning back. I've already gotten further than I have in the past and I'm sticking to it!

What I tell myself every night:

I am getting skinnier, healthier, and sexier everyday!

Now, if I can do this, you can too! So get out there, get motivated and do it!!!!

xo Megan

Day 17

Not much to report. I am super excited about my summer challenge, so check it out and join me if you want to!!! Today was pretty much the same as yesterday... busy, busy, busy.

Summer Challenge starts tomorrow!

I think I'm just going to start with the weight from this past Tuesday. I only want to have one weigh in per week to keep it interesting. Turns out that that is a big challenge for me. I am once again, getting addicted to the scale. But I am trying hard to not be.

There is no point in getting stressed out about weight loss. It doesn't help you! So calm down and kick some ass!!!! :)

xo Megan